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School got me like…whoa

School got me like…whoa

But, for real…whoa.

When I say that I’ve been in college for a long time, I’m not exaggerating.  I’ve been enrolled in college courses for, what will be, this month, 16 years.  You’ve read that right, sixteen years.  I haven’t graduated with any degree yet, either.  It’s not something that I’m very proud of.

What I am proud of, is my unrelenting desire to finish and my unwillingness to give up.

I transferred my credits at the end of last year with the plan to enroll in summer classes.  I wanted to give myself time to mentally prepare for what I was getting myself into.  When I transferred my credits, I didn’t expect the school to accept all of my credits.  Much to my surprise, the accepted all of them and I am on track to graduate in the spring (part time enrollment).  I mean holy shit!  I’m actually going to graduate.

I’m stuck between elation (because I’m finally going to have a degree) and feeling like a loser (because it’s taken me sixteen years to get an associate degree).  I’m disappointed in myself because I should have finished school years ago, but proud because it’s actually happening.

That said – school is fucking hard.  I’m not a very good student.  Not because I don’t like school or the subject matter, but because there is always something else that I need to be doing.  Scheduling time for school is really difficult for me.  I don’t prioritize it, and I never really have.  I’ve always been able to get decent grades with minimal effort.  This semester I took four classes, in two five week sessions.  I don’t know what the hell I was thinking.  I have been so stressed about school, that it’s not even funny.  I started a new job and went back to school in the same week.  It has been insanity.  I’m finally getting settled into the job, but school has been incredibly hard.

I feel like I have neglected everything else in my life these past few months.  I haven’t blogged.  I haven’t been knitting.  I haven’t seen friends.  I haven’t been cooking.  I’ve neglected poor Vince.  I missed a lot of workouts.  I’ve basically spent the entire summer at my desk.

I have some old blogs to post (damn that publish button).  I should really do that too, but I have a paper to write about the Cold War (see – I’m making school a priority!).

Finals are this week and then I have a whole week off before my fall classes begin.  Calculus and accounting – Oy!  I’ll try to hit that publish button next week.

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