But, for real…whoa.
When I say that I’ve been in college for a long time, I’m not exaggerating. I’ve been enrolled in college courses for, what will be, this month, 16 years. You’ve read that right, sixteen years. I haven’t graduated with any degree yet, either. It’s not something that I’m very proud of.
What I am proud of, is my unrelenting desire to finish and my unwillingness to give up.
I transferred my credits at the end of last year with the plan to enroll in summer classes. I wanted to give myself time to mentally prepare for what I was getting myself into. When I transferred my credits, I didn’t expect the school to accept all of my credits. Much to my surprise, the accepted all of them and I am on track to graduate in the spring (part time enrollment). I mean holy shit! I’m actually going to graduate.
I’m stuck between elation (because I’m finally going to have a degree) and feeling like a loser (because it’s taken me sixteen years to get an associate degree). I’m disappointed in myself because I should have finished school years ago, but proud because it’s actually happening.
That said – school is fucking hard. I’m not a very good student. Not because I don’t like school or the subject matter, but because there is always something else that I need to be doing. Scheduling time for school is really difficult for me. I don’t prioritize it, and I never really have. I’ve always been able to get decent grades with minimal effort. This semester I took four classes, in two five week sessions. I don’t know what the hell I was thinking. I have been so stressed about school, that it’s not even funny. I started a new job and went back to school in the same week. It has been insanity. I’m finally getting settled into the job, but school has been incredibly hard.
I feel like I have neglected everything else in my life these past few months. I haven’t blogged. I haven’t been knitting. I haven’t seen friends. I haven’t been cooking. I’ve neglected poor Vince. I missed a lot of workouts. I’ve basically spent the entire summer at my desk.
I have some old blogs to post (damn that publish button). I should really do that too, but I have a paper to write about the Cold War (see – I’m making school a priority!).
Finals are this week and then I have a whole week off before my fall classes begin. Calculus and accounting – Oy! I’ll try to hit that publish button next week.